Friday, July 29, 2011

So sick of being, sick.

Have I offended someone?
Why am I being tormented with a package of illness in one day?
Used 2 packets of tissue just to contemplate my running nose.
Seriously, I never been so sick in months. Maybe it's the weather?

For the first time, you're late for college. Even you're sick..
Was a waste of time coming to college today, didn't do nuts but spending money on breakfast.
Although I had to drive all the way to college just to see you, I'll have no regrets.
But for somewhat reason, she's being cold at times. Maybe I think too much?
Or maybe she's just sick too and doesn't have the mood.

Funny how everyday I would stare at the phone and wish that you would text me first.
Fat chance I suppose~
As for being sick today, she didn't know until I told her.
I don't need to be told to rest or whatever by others,
I just needed your concern, I sound like a girl. Geez..

I hope I'll be alright tomorrow, apparently mum, dad and William are coming down to see grandma.
When people are dying, suddenly everyone loves you.
For a cancer patient diagnosed with stage 4 cancer in the bone, kidney, neck..
Chances to live is like, less than 1% I guess?
I hope the grass she is taking now will eventually cure her, I'm expecting a miracle which never happened before.

Everyone didn't come to wish her a speedy recovery, they just wanted my grandma's assets.
Greedy people, even if I wasn't given a single cent I would go see her everyday.
67 years old, knocking out already? Get well..

In the end, nobody cares if you are sick.
I know she doesn't care about me, because I'm nothing but a friend to her.
Despite how much I try to communicate with her, I'm always the one asking questions.
Too bad, I'll take it as a retribution from abandoning Tinker.

Till then, I wished she cared. Not anyone else..

Thursday, July 28, 2011

First words

I actually started blogging again because of you,
but the thing is I don't want to let you read it.

Anyways, life in KL is simply awesome!!
I got a new car to drive, a multi-million dollar house to stay in.
But it can get a little lonely..

Having a freaking flu, if sneezing all of the sudden means somebody is missing you.
I wished it was you who misses me.
Everyday I would look at you, but for some reason I would go quiet when I want to talk to you.
Loss for words I suppose, little bear said to get over you and move on.
If only it was that simple..
Sometimes I wonder, maybe you do like me? But just waiting for me to confess?
I fear rejection, so I can't let you know just yet.

Another day, another thought of me and you.
Feelings for you come and go, but the only time it goes is when I'm doing my things.

If only I was more brave, guess that is something I never learnt.
I'm not important anyways, geez what an upsetting statement to make.
My first post in my blog, everything about you.